I feel a little out of control, it’s been a weird week for me. I started a new job at the hospital, a lot of running around to be done for that. I do enjoy seeing the patients and being able to work in a hospital again but at the same time it is always a little stressful starting a new job, and then there are my upcoming exams. I just feel exhausted and drained all the time, and it feels as if I have to fight and battle to hear from God, I have also struggled to pick up and read my bible this week. It’s weird, like I’m in a funk or something. But Rob at small group made a point that made sense to me, maybe God can let me go on my own, God doesn’t need to hold my hand anymore. I am His child and he now is allowing me to walk on my own.
Perhaps it is not all easy and fun Sundays when you are a christian. So I have been reading through the two books of Samuel, I really like David. He wasn’t perfect and he messed up a lot. He was chased by the Philistines and Saul’s army. He lived in caves and struggled emotionally. But for all that was wrong with David he loved God and God cared for him. I take comfort in the fact that no matter how rough a week I may have and no matter how much I mess up or whether I am encircled by my enemies, my Lord will save me, he is perfect, and he will not let me go.
“we will not be the last, we will not be the lost.”
